It’s weird to think I.used to rely on people, like when I felt shit I spoke to someone instead of just wallowing in the darkness. I can’t really imagine telling anyone how I feel, I can say what’s happened, but never how bad it is, there’s no denying it’s horrible but the people who used to be able to see me cry, only ever see me smile, like I’ve suddnely got mentally stronger. I haven’t, I’m just alone.
Loss of a mediocre replacement of a previously lost mediocre replacement. There’s a gap between each, empty like most minds will never experience, understand or possibly empathize with
Year after year after year after year after year, shit just keeps falling away
Circles, circles, circles, circles, circles, circles
so yeh i gave up. i don’t wanna start using tumblr again it just feels good sometimes.
I’m sorry I lost it my love, I am so sorry
no longer no longer no longer no longer no longer